det dèr med..

Det dér med at savne den eneste ene. Jeg føler nogen gange jeg mangler hende.
Jeg ved, at jeg aldrig kommer til at være i forhold med en fyr. Det er bare.. anderledes. Og alt for fjernt for mig. Måske er dét fordi der aldrig har været noget alvorligt mellem én fyr og mig. I really don't know.

Men ih. Jeg ville ønske at hun fandtes. Én der ville kunne holde mig ud. Tale mig til fornuft. Og samtidig give mig et skub og modspil. Min drømmekvinde skal kunne inspirere mig. Langt smukt hår, livlig natur og generelt bare stråle af livsglæde. Findes hun mon derude?

AB

Hun er så smuk. Så sindssygt smuk. Så sårbar og sensitiv. På samme tid en virkelig sensuel skønhed, der kan være fræk når hun vælger det. Hun har et hjerteformet ansigt, der er indrammet af lyse lokker, og ja det er hvidt. Fra naturens side selvfølgelig. Lange buede vipper, under dem er der klare blå øjne. Det blik hun giver er så hemmelighedsfuldt og mystisk. Så sårbart. Hun ejer en fin lille prinsessenæse, ved siden af den er der markerede kindben, men alligevel fyldige æblekinder. Videre ned til munden, åh den fyldige mund, som jeg bare kunne kysse dagen lang. Det er så svært for mig at beskrive hende ordentligt fordi jeg har så mange stikord og så mange forskellige måder at beskrive hende på! Årh, længsel. Har savnet hende så meget og så vupti. Så kontakter hun mig. I've missed you, AB. Kys



ciao.

and I'm feeling good.

Birds flying high.. You know how I feel. Sun in the sky - you know how I feel.I'm feeling good. ta da... ta da. da dam dam dam dam dam dammm.

I'm finally home now. I've been traveling around. Seen some Sex And The City. And God, I loved it. I really love and adore Samantha Jones. So.. Rough, but yet so vulnerable and sensitive at the same time. She is like an egg. Hard on the outside and soft in the inside. I love her personality. She is outgoing and very confident. Not to mention her honesty! Haha, and I love that part where she is showing her bush to Carrie, cause she'd colored it a wrong color - red.
She have done many funny and stupid things. She's not a monogamist (yet) and she is so free - when Carrie (or is it Charlotte that calls her?) She just says: "I told you, I was gonna masturbate ALL day." She thought she have lost her orgasm - period!

Me, myself - are like.. a mix of them. I'm 70% Samantha and 30% Charlotte. And wait - it's not because I'm pushy and suffering from cleaning frenzy! It's because Charlotte is so sweet. Caring. And tremendously sensitive - as I can be. Sometimes. But mostly, when I'm with people I really trust!

My life is good right now. Waiting for school to start. I'm looking forward to, and I hope I'll make it! Of course I can. It's me?
I'm also looking for an apartment - need to get out of this nut-house and get closer to the city and not to mention the train-station and my friends!I hope it will work out.

Oh, anyway, I was reading this book last night - about spirits and aura's, uh and other crazy stuff. I got really scared and was happy, that I wasn't born as a medium! I don't get how medium's can stand spirits seeking them all the time, well maybe not all the time - but it takes lots of energy to close them out from theirs center/head. It is embarrassing to admit but I had so much paranoia that I didn't want to walk out and pee. I was alone in the house, and it was like a half storm outside. Yddrk. Luckily I was in a big bed with many pillows and many duvets, so I guess I was fine after some hours in my sleep. Oh God, this is SO random. Ha.

I'll use some time with the new dog and my family now. Hope the weather will get clearer. Kiss

ciao!

i hate being jealous.

So. As the title says: I hate being jealous. And the reason why I am, is because of this ex. This particular ex-girlfriend, is really.. really getting on my nerves. I'm not used to people hating me - annoyed yes, but not hating me. She says she doesn't hate me - anymore. That's fine, but while she doesn't hate me, she disgust me etc. And she talks bad about me to my friend and even my sister, which I really regret I introduced her to! It breaks my heart knowing that my sister sees her behind my back. Off course I knew it - but she didn't have to tell. I get jealous. Because she is my sister, and knowing they are having a good time etc, while I'm not there feels so wrong... For me, at least. I just... Don't really know what to write. I've changed since her, I really have.

She annoys me, when she think she is, oh so fabulous, cause she isn't! She is angry with me cause I wouldn't pleasure her in bed - and it was only because I didn't find her attracted - only her personality. She just won't get her ego damaged or hurt. I might sound like a lousy girlfriend, but she was to.. to sticky and I couldn't breathe. No air. No fighting back. Only what I wanted. That is not what I need in a relationship. She got hurt. And I can't take it back. Sometimes life just suck. We weren't good for each other, thats just the way it is.

I'll try to get used to my sister seeing her - but I'll probable still be jealous. Jealously is a bad thing, Elizabeth..

I love this quote: "Have I ever told you I love you? - D"
It's from a very romantic movie with Demi Moore.
Mmhm. I'm tired now. The sun is rising slowly and the birds are singing a bit. I better go to sleep, or I'll never get up again.

Ciao.

i'm angry.

Jeg er vred. Jeg føler mig udnyttet og billig. Røde, ringede forleden og spurgte om jeg var med på noget frækt, nej nej vent.. ikke bare noget frækt, faktisk sagde han ordret: "vil du ha' pik?" - han var fuld og ville bare have sex. Get it. Jeg afslår (irriteret!) og allerede dèr følte jeg mig krænket. Jeg ville skrive én sms (dagen efter, dog), for at svine ham til, men min søster talte mig fra det.
Jeg sidder på FB dagen efter og ser så, at han nu står i et forhold. Forhold?! Åbenbart med en pige han havde haft noget med længe. Og alligevel ringer han, klokken 05:30 om morgenen til MIG for at få et knald?? Jeg var så vred og ikke mindst skuffet over ham. Nåh ja, han var fuld. So fucking what? Han kunne godt have fundet på at lave et bootycall selvom han var ædru, dog nok mere diskret. Anyway. Jeg var bare nødt til at skrive det ned et sted. Jeg ved ikke helt om jeg skal slette ham fra diverse steder, eller ignorere episoden. Jeg kunne jo lide ham, og havde håbet på at ende op sammen med ham, trods alle hans fejl. Det kommer aldrig til at ske, believe me! I deserve better than that.

Ciao.

grrr. miav.

So.. It's been a while. grr.


Mh, jeg har tullet rundt. Hygget. Fået job.
Jeg har det godt. Mit kærlighedsliv går stille og roligt, selvom jeg dog gerne vil score en sød dreng med dybebrune øjne. grr!


Har lige viklet mit hår i en lang fletning og brugt lang tid på at rense min hud, fjerne make-up og pleje mig selv. I deserved it.
Har haft en utrolig lang dag - har fået shoppet en ny lang sølvkæde, en masse dirty lingeri og ellers bare noget hyggetøj. That, I deserved, too!


Nyder det halvgode vejr. Mine fregner titter frem og får en dejlig brun farve. Min brystkasse og arme er allerede godt gyldenbrune, samt mine ben og fødder er næsten mørkere en alle andre steder på kroppen (går meget i shorts, selvom det er småkoldt udenfor).


Går faktisk bare rundt og er sommerkåd og ekstremt selvglad.
WP spurgte flere gange ind til hvorfor jeg var blevet så selvglad og dertil svarede jeg - "jamen, prøv lige at se mig engang?"
Haha, har aldrig set hendes ansigtsudtryk sådan før, men grunden til at jeg er selvglad er bare.. At solen gør et eller andet fantastisk ved min krop. Dens varme stråler der fylder mig med livsglæde og varme. Samt bagefter har man det fantastisk! Når man vågner om morgenen og solen skinner, så kan man sgu ikke lade være med at smile og glæde sig over hvad dagen mon har at bringe med. + man bliver bare så super lækker! (eller.. jeg gør i hvert fald)




Eric and Sookie in a bed. Naked. Stroking eatch other and.. Uh, other stuff too.


Eric: "Finish your sentence."
Sookie: "What was I saying?"
Eric: "You were telling me how you would be a terrible vampire, and I was disagreeing."
Sookie: "Well.. I don't feel right without a tan?"
*Eric's laughing*
Sookie: "It's true, and I'll rather be alive than undead. And then you're always killing."
Eric: "You've killed a man?"
Sookie: "That was for selfdefence, not for lunch."
Eric: "No you the damned, just like we all do. Trade the sun for moon and stars."
Sookie: "Ah-ah, not me, I want them all."
Eric: "Haha, oh, greedy?"
Sookie: "Yeah, I am.."
Eric: "I love it."

*Kissing and stroking her hand*


Eric: "You have the right temperament for a vampire -"
Sookie: "Why? Because I'm bloodthirsty and old as dirt?"
Eric: "Uh, bloodthirsty, yeah."
Sookie: "I am not!"

*Eric's laughing*

Eric: "Everybody thinks you're a darling, don't they?"
Sookie: "I am a darling."
Eric: "But you are ruthless when it comes to the people you love - You'll do anything for them. Your brother.. Your friends.. Me?"


*Kissing*


Eric: "I used to think you had no sence of humor."
Sookie: " I used to think that you were made og cold hard stone - and empty inside.
Eric: " And now?"
Sookie: "You're a big faker, ha. You're deep. You feel. There's love in you."
Eric: ".. Only for Sookie."




ciao.

brownnn.

Oh god. I'm so obsessed by the colour brown. Mh. Light brown, dark brown.
I just got a new purse in brown. And I'm actually wearing a beige shirt nowww.

Spending some time with White. I've missed her. <3

down to the river..

Down by the river by the boats

where everybody goes to be alone

where you wont see any rising sun
down to the river we will run..

when by the water we drink to the dregs

look at the stones on the river bed
I can tell from your eyes
you've never been by the riverside,

down by the water the riverbed
somebody calls you somebody says
swim with the current and float away
down to the river everyday,

 

oh my God I see how everything is torn in the river deep

and I don't know why I go the way
down by the riverside,

 

when that old river runs pass your eyes

to wash off the dirt on the riverside

go to the water so very near
the river will be your eyes and ears,

 

I walk to the borders on my own

to fall in the water just like a stone

chilled to the marrow in them bones

why do I go here all alone?

oh my God I see how everything is torn in the river deep,
 

and I don't know why I go the way,

 

down by the riverside..

down by the riverside..

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lBBMhExfoRM&feature=BF&list=PL035E7F1622BD8DA8&index=9

De synger den sang SÅ fantastisk. Smuk, smuk sang.

um, goddies?

Ohhh, har haft den mest fantastiske dag i dag!

dog, er der plusser og minusser:


+ jeg fik en masse smykker med guld fra pilgrim! Og så fik jeg en ny intimpiercing i guld, med sten på. Den er så fin og feminim at kigge på. Jeg var ekstrem lækker idag. Perfekt make-up, mine elskede kilehæle, og lækre nye sommerbrune trøje. Jeg fandt den smukkeste gallakjole. Jeez. Håber så meget min mor vil betale! Oggg - jeg har fået et nyt "guldur"- Alle butikkerne har åbenbart fået nogen af de samme ting, for de sælger mange ure som halskæde og btw, de er fucking lækre. Enten i guld eller sølv. Mmmh. We like!

- jeg har haft meget ømme fødder, trods det var mine yndlingssko. Jeg frøs lidt. Jeg havde ikke særlig mange penge, så måtte låne af en veninde. Jeg havde bestilt grillkylling (groose I know..) og så var den fucking frossen inde i midten! Klamt. Det er så her folk tænker, "Hey? Hvorfor gik du ikke op og klagede?" Ja, ser du.. Efter at have gået flere kilometer (overdrivelse fremmer forståelse!), så er jeg ikke lige mest opsat på at løbe frem og tilbage unødigt, så jeg spiste bare det der ikke var frossen og lod som ingenting.. Suk.

Mmh. Jeg tror ikke der var mere. Jeg chiller lige nu med masser af stearinlys og chillmusik. Livet er bare fantastisk!

ciao!

Wtf?! Lobe scalpelling?!

Holy fucking moly! Scal-what?

It is obiviously a way of stretching your ear even further (no no! not stretching? CUTTING!)

 if you want the hole to be bigger. God.. It is so groose. Irdk.



At this point.. You all can see that the tools don't look... nice.





Uhmmmh. And here we see a dude.. Get cutted ind the ear!



And now.. The plastic thing is getting stuffed in the ear. auch.

And doooneee. ew. I skipped some pictures
because there was lots of blood on them. But here is
the result of the scalpelling- something of the ear,
and I bet it's for someone who doesn't have patience
with stretching their ears. Mh.

That was all for now.. Just stumbled over it, and couldn't help myself.. Had to show you how.. eh, nasty it is.. Or, I think it's nasty.

Ciao!





All the things she said, runnin' trough my head..

So, I'm sick today. I've had some normal hours in school, but when I got home, I got the worst headach ever!
I'm actually just waiting for dinner.. I hope it'll come soon. I'm so hungry!
Anyway, I was reading some blogs, and I saw this girl.. She was "blogging" over Youtube, where she wrote some cards with all her secrets. Omfg - there was lots of stuff, like her being pregnant, being bullied in school etc.
I was thinking... Why post yourself like that way, in public? Sure I understand, she is having a rough time.. ( or have always had?)
1: She is hurting the boy she is pregnant with!
2: She should talk with some other people instead of showing her problems to everyone on the internet.
3: The people who see it, and know her, should advice her to get some help. Proffessionel help!
4: I should really not care about it. I don't know her. But after seeing her blogs.. Well.

Mmh. I just ate. It was delicious! Oh, and I stumbled over t.A.t.U's song: "all the things she said" uh.. I love that song!
I'm heading of to bath.

ciao!

love, oh love.

.. I'm gonna tell you how I feel about you, cause I, oh I.. And then I can't remember the text.

Anyway. I'm chillin'. Waiting for the weekend to arrive.

ciao. <3

How it feels to be an adult.

Here we go again. I haven't written in a longgg time. So here we go.
23/01/93.. I got born. I was normal sized, and healthy as i horse. My mom didn't have any problems giving birth to me. And my dad were out somewhere - drunk, offcourse.
Anyway, I turned 18 here yesterday. Mh.

I don't know what to write really. But I'm having a fight with my roomie. Well, thats not a new thinh. She said she wanted to talk with me.. And I'm sitting here.. And nothing is happening. So I guess we are going to sleep. Like nothing happend. But lets see.

Night night.

ciao!

Update.

Nåh, jeg har ikke skrevet i herre lang tid. Så tænkte det var på tide med en update.
Altså, der er sket så meget! Jeg har fundet ud af, at jeg er meget "forelsket" i Røde. og nu prøver jeg så at finde ud af hvordan vi skal være sammen, HVIS vi overhovedet skal det.
Det er også bare fordi.. Jeg har aldrig mødt en person som jeg klikker så godt med. Det er som om vi er meget ens, men så alligevel ikke. Det er bare ikke ofte man møder nogen man passer så godt sammen med. Men han er kompliceret.. Ligesom mig. Virkelig kompliceret. Men det prøver jeg i hvert fald at arbejde på.
Udover det, så er Krølle sammen med min eks. Det har jeg det fint med, da jeg ikke passede specielt godt sammen med Krølle, det er mere intensiteten der holdt det kørende.. og snakken om sex. Og det er ikke lige det jeg værdiger mest i et forhold. Så nu er de endt sammen, så nu må vi se hvordan det kommer til at gå. Oh, og så fylder jeg år her om ikke så længe. Om 11 dage faktisk.
Det er ret surrealistisk - at blive myndig. Allerede.
Jeg holder en lille komsammen med mine nærmeste veninder, og jeg håber det bliver hyggeligt, selvom det er lang tid siden.. Jeg har tabt min piercing i læben, æv.. Men har stadig den i næsen heldigvis! Mmhm. Jeg tror ikke jeg skal have flere.
Btw, så hører jeg meget L.O.C og Suspekt pt. Og lidt Christina Aguilera.. Mh. Englesang.
Jeg er også blevet meget i tvivl om der findes spørgelser? Nogen der kan hjælpe mig med at bliver overbevist? Someone?
Jeg tror jeg vil tage en lur.. Inden jeg skal til fransktime. Mh.

Bonjour.